KCL's Blog

Playing for Ngee Ann

2008-12-30T01:10:00.003+08:00

Whenever i talk about ngee ann, laoheng will come straight into my mind..
Cos i owe him $200! damn.. everytime forgot to pay him...
must remember!!!!!!!!!

Today, I went down to Woodlands to play the final match of this tournament for ngee ann..
couldn't really got my way there, and halfway there i met Raymond so i went on with him..
It's the last match against Payar Lebar..
We won by quite a big margin i guess.. not really taking note of the scores..
We got 2nd and Whyenam got 1st den DOS 3rd..
Did not stay back to collect my medal... went straight home with Raymond. ( home is the best place =) )
initially, wanna stay back and take Val's car home, but Raymond is in hurry so i went off with him..

I played the full 3rd quarter and few mins before the final buzzer..
score some points.. yeah.. heng told me to relax and play, dun be greedy to take points.. slowly take them all..
I was playing at my max so as to reclaim my spot in the team.. i mustn't skip trainings anymore.. more trainings ah heng..
hope to underline my ability in ngee ann team..

wanna play in my last IVP. perhaps my last tournament before going to NS...
speaking of NS, i couldn't get a silver for my pull up. damn..
gotta run and pump for the rest of the days till jan 5... my NAPFA..

seriously need to shed weight... been saying so much but din act out.. arrgh!

Hit Down hard

2008-12-23T23:12:00.002+08:00

Today, i went for a match at Kovan Paya Lebar CC
Went down by Val's car together with Prasad, Waiming and Alan..
It was a 4 teams invitational tournament ( Ngee Ann, Whye Nam, DOS, and Paya Lebar )

Played Against Val's team DOS.. juz for 2 mins and sat out all the way...
made a couple of free throws..
I had to admit that the feeling for not able to play sucks..
This is not the first time.. but i slowly began to understand why is it so..
maybe i did not go for the trainings and suddenly appear during the match day, or maybe I am not able to fit in into the ngee ann squad..
hmm.. but it's alright..
I had decided to give myself a chance to compete in the ngee ann team..
Whether getting into the team or not, I will take it as it is...
I will take the trainings ( if any ) as some physical trainings to get myself ready for the NAPFA test next month..

Great to have my ankle recover.. feel lesser pain and strengthening is needed..
Confidence level!

lowwww.................

back to blog

2008-11-29T02:04:00.002+08:00

It's 2.05am...
I still can't get to sleep.. haha.. was watching channel 8 now.. street fighter.. wtf
Hmm.. I had been busy for the past fortnight..
Many time was spent on my Final Year Project and I don't get any time to play basketball..
I got to prepare myself for the final panel presentation and my final report..
Project was all about Liquid Nitrogen Ice cream..
My group and I were trying hard to get the machine working..

haven been exercise for so long, i feel like im getting heavier and heavier le..
after the ankle injury, i din exercise much until today... still got abit of pain which i dunno why.. maybe i still need more rest..

played basketball with alan pang, aaron foo, sean,prasad and melvin, the freestyle champion...
was quite amazed by his skills.. i personally think he's cool and veri skillful.. and bit look ike jay chou man.. lol
few shake and bake, ankle breaking moves and sudden jumpshots.. he made the game so easy.. so easy to win.. totally cant defend him..
a joy to watch him play, some even sat down to watch him play.. till now i guess he has the best ball control i seen..

den two weeks from now will be my common test le.. although there is 2 modules tested, i need to give my best.. score as much as i can.. cos it will be the last sem im studying in np le.. graduating soon.. 3more month.. =)
oh ya.. there's still my napfa test.. still not sure i wanna pass it anot.. i wanna keng to get pes c..
or should i juz chiong.. i duno if my knee can take it but i think there's good and bad abt it..

next is abt basketball trainings.. i feel like going back to ngee ann training... i wan the fun back again .....!

Injured

2008-10-31T01:55:00.002+08:00

This evening, it was Cck csc vs the Boon Lay csc..
We lost by 8 pts and it wasn't a tight game though.
We were losing by nearly 20 pts and we fought hard to catch up, but still, we could not get any miracles done.
This is the last match I will be playing for cckcc and will be playing for nanyang next.

While in the match fighting for a rebound, I land awkwardly and sprained my ankle.
There was an loud crack and I can feel it.
There was this numb feeling for awhile and then, immediately i feel the pain..
It was a sharp pain and i had to endure it.
I was lucky that i did not hurt my knee and that was a huge relieve for me.
Luckily the medic there told me it's juz a sprain and everything is alright.
Phew.. i juz need a few weeks rest.
On my other knee, I'm feeling normal now..

I went down to the Singapore General Hospital for a check with my physio..
and again was relieved to hear that i juz strained one of my hamstring tendons and nothing wrong with my ligaments.. =)

After the Boon Lay/CCK match, i was lectured by Ronglie..
Ya.. he was right.. Im juz too solo and offensive minded, he even asked me when had i ever pass to a nice open player for a shot. I think about it and he was right.. All I ever do is to take points and never an assist.. This is one thing i will take note.. and the way basketball should play.
I will remember this remark from him..

Im so scared

2008-10-29T00:42:00.002+08:00

eeeewww... Surely you will get goosebumps looking at the pic here..
This is the so called hyperextended knee..
I was thinking whether i got hurt my knee..
The pain got better after i woke up the next day, but i fear i might have hyperextended my knee as i gathered infos from the web..
The symtoms and signs i got in my knee were described correctly in the web...
Now feeling so down and sian, i might have hurt one of the ligaments..
I want to play basketball.. I don't want to get another knee injury.. =(
I hope i only strained my knee that's all =(

=)

2008-10-27T21:43:00.002+08:00

Hi.. I'm back to blog again..
Recently, I had been busy and lazy to do so because of my tiredness..
I had been playing basketball for the past straight days.
I ended my air alert 2 due to some migraine i got after working out..
the pain is unbearable and when i jumped the 11Th time, i can feel the rush of blood going through my brain.. so I decided to stop and keep balling for the rest of the days.

Last Thursday, CCKcc had won another Interconstituency match and that was against Keat Hong Csc.. Some of my friends were there and it's like playing a friendly match..
We won them by 20 plus pts margin.. and before our match, it's also great to see Boon Lay Csc lost to Pioneer csc..
Last shot in the last few seconds went in for Pioneer and they won..
It's pretty good to see Boon Lay Csc lose as I don't wish to play against pioneer again if Pioneer lost.. we were defeated by Pioneer by 36 points.. so I think it's not wise to play them again..

Then today Deepavali, Marc( Kaixuan coach ) treated us lunch at kushin-bo.. it was a nice Japanese restaurant and i ate a lot.. still remembering the night before, i was with Prasad, Waiming, Val, Qixiang eating Suki Sushi at cine..
From there, we met a few of the NP players there, Gabriel, Ron, Daryl, Demin, Zikun and Kelvin.. heard they were celebrating Darren's birthday..
OH.. By the way, Happy Deepavali to PRASAD
festival of light.. light u all up

Now, i am sitting at my desk, icing my right knee..
I do not know how i got the pain.. it makes me feel instable, kind of locked, but i don't remember hurting my knee or snapping my knee..
The pain is bit unbearable and i had to limp when i walked..
Really hope nothing wrong with my healthy knee.. i don't want another op..

And This coming Thursday might be the final match for CCKcsc.. when we play against Boon Lay.. the winner will reach the top 16 of the tournament.. The loser will play again next year.
I really hope we can win against Boon Lay.. then it will be the year we had played the furthest..
But with my knee condition like this, i am not able to play..
Really hope my knee will be at its 100% by Thursday and hopefully it is just a strain =)
OK.. I shall stop here.. Blog again =)

=)

2008-10-13T23:13:00.002+08:00

mens open ended..
Of all 8 matches whye nam had played.. i played 4..
began to ask myself as a player, why is my attitude like this..
been missing for alot of matches and finding excuses to lie my coach..
arrgh.. Why had i become like this?

perhaps i should put a stop on bb first..
no motivations and energy to play..

recently.. been busy with air alert.. it's a planned workout to help u to improve ur vertical jump..
dunno whether it's true or not.. some players used tat to improve on their jump..
maybe i can test it on my own to see any results..

cckcc lost to pioneer..
it's a match.. well i dun think i need to play..
u put me in in the last quarter?
u play me when everyone gave up?
u still wanna win?
u think im tat good?
u think u are that smart tactician who need some other player to beg u to let me play..?
i dunno if there's some prejudice between u and me..
i observe it from the past few games u in charge? i play so little..
u are not a coach... juz a stand in useless thing...

next match in the loser bracket..
win or go home..
tired of basketball again man..

=)

2008-10-05T03:19:00.003+08:00

hi.. back again.. =)
been busy and tired for the past few weeks due to fyp and lack of slp
been clubbing veri often le.. broke =(

next for basketball.. sorry whyenam..
i had missed three straight mens open matches..
was lucky the first two were won and proceed on to round 2..
glad tat i can play a few more matches..
and today i smsed kangyi for the results abt today match( another one i had missed )

received the msg saying tat they had lost to some old uncles team.. dunno wat the team called..
not a good start of round 2
heard tat whyenam's grouping include minyi and yuhua..
hope to win the last two matches and go on to the semi =)

will be down for the match tmr at 8..
mux win.. slp now!

Whye Nam matches

2008-09-22T00:20:00.002+08:00

finally men's open had started..
it started yesterday night when we vs the vervex team..
we won by 5 pts..
we should have played the last quarter easily if not for the slack defence we had in the 3rd..
we took the 17 pt lead for granted and almost letting them to make a comeback..

den after the match, i called prasad to ask him abt the final of the kovan cup, lost by 6 pts..
i tot we ( kaixuan ) can win.. but it's alright now.. i think i can make a trip down for the game 3..
muz win the medal!

den today whye nam played a team name meridian rent a car.. haha.. abit funny, but heard from demin tat's the sponsor name.. haha!
we play hard for the first quarter.. alot of our players did not actually come.. we ended up playing them with 7 players...
players rotation is veri fast.. i do not have enough breath to catch up, maybe because i slept at 7am in the morning.. no energy no everything..
and this is the second match i played without my knee wrap.. haha.. it feel normal when i did not think of it.. hope i can carry on playing without it.. it's a good thing for me =)

luckily we got the right people to come down, the scorers, the rebounders.. was veri impressed with our centers.. although they are 16 or 18.. they are really skilful at their age..
at the end of the match, we found ourselves winning the opposite with a comfortable 20 pt margin.. looks like i can go down to kovan to play the final game with kaixuan.. =)
hoping to win the medal.. and to play the last match with kaixuan..

am veri tired now.. and tmr got to wake up to go sch again.. darn!
nite...

Overcoming the barrier

2008-09-18T14:58:00.002+08:00

The playing of basketball had changed so much after recovering from this injury..
u need to be quicker, stronger, and much more aggressive to stay in the game..
this is how a basketball should be played.. and i know it..

last night i got a friendly against republic poly again ( playing them for the 6 or 7 times already this yr )
there was this thing tat keep bothering me throughout the game
whenever i scored a basket, i had to re-adjust my knee wrap which i had been using ever since returning to basketball after the injury..
is it the vast movement making it came loose or is it time to change a new one.. or isit time to stop using it?

i remember the doctor telling me not to rely on those knee guards or knee brace..
my coach oso told me to overcome this barrier.. he does not see those confidence i got in the past..

i wanted to play without the knee wrap, but i couldnt bring myself to do it as i scared i might re injure again.. my knee is strong now and tests had proven it.. but i still feel kinda scared to play without one..

i muz really overcome this barrier to play without the knee wrap..
pls pardon me if i dun play well =/

=)

2008-09-16T21:51:00.002+08:00

finally im ready to blog..
past few weeks been busy with my FYP..
i'm so bored in sch.. merely juz wasting time in sch from 9 to 5.. although the last few days i came late..
change of supervisor.. =)
a supervisor who knows wat she want from our project group..
better than the previous one who dunno wat he wan from us.. so pathetic..
luckily i passed all my modules and next sem will be my last sem.. =)
graduating soon.. den army le.. =/

As for basketball, this coming week will be the start of the men's open
will be playing for whye nam.. few of the yishun and republic poly players..
getting to know them better after a few friendlies
whye nam is not a veri strong team, but will be playing hard to go next round and gain experiences playing with older players..

next week will be the start of the inter-constituency too..
will play either simei or panjang..
after playing with a few csc teams.. i suddenly think tat cckcc is not as strong as i think.. not much chemistry within the squad and oso a part time coach? a coach who dun coach us every matches.. dunno how we can play far like this.. tat is one of the reasons why i went over to nanyang csc..

congrat on team Kaixuan...!
made it to the final.. hope tat they can beat the payer lebar team to win the cup... =)
wont be there for the finals, but will be waiting for good news.. believe we can do it.. =)

=))))))))))))))))))))

NANYANG CSC vs BOONLAY CSC

2008-09-02T15:37:00.002+08:00

last night i went for the match against boon lay csc..
i came late and arrived only in the 2nd quarter and sad to see my team was trailing by so much..
nanyang csc only managed 9pts while boonlay got 20 plus in the first quarter..
at first i tot it wont be a one sided match.. but it is when we found troubles scoring..

in the end we lost by quite alot. i saw dejected faces around after the match..
we lost alot because of our lousy defences, maybe one more thing is tat the coach is not around..
whereby boonlay is much more organised in both offense and defense..

it's ok tat we los, we know where are we, train hard now.. although i wont be joining nanyang csc for this yr intercon, really hope tat your will rain hard and well and play as far as possible.. i will be playing for cckcsc for my last yr here.. work hard together.. =)

next for the wai wei, will be joining whye nam.. been 2 yrs plus since returning there..
i did not even go for the trainings and yet my fren told me tat the coach reserved a spot for me.. was thankful to him, cos i tot i wouldn't be in the team..
tmr will be playing against cagers for a friendly at unity sec sch.. muz go for the friendly..

yesterday after the match, guan fu ask me why i did not pick up his call, he was finding to play for his team in wai wei.. i do not know how to ans man.. haha.. and i juz said i was busy tat time not realising. and i told him i went back whye nam..

hopefully everything will go well for the next few months.. cos there will be tournaments and soon the release of my exam results...

still need to go back to sch for my holidays.. argh.. find nothing to do there except cs and gym.. darn!

=)

2008-08-16T21:04:00.002+08:00

was a random day for me...
i went out with my fren ambroze at panjang plaza starbucks to study icont..
met him late and ate long john..
need to really buck up for the exam on tues.. not as ready yet..
after studying, went to my fren's house for some CS.. damn.. think my laptop going to spoil soon.. it keep restarting.. something wrong with it..
saw a quiz in gab's blog.. decided to play with it.. tat's how it goes...

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education
Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

i guess some part of it is right abt it..
juz a random post.. =)

Something to gain and something to lose

2008-08-15T23:45:00.002+08:00

cckcup ended.. cck lost its 3rd and 4th placing..
a game we can win, juz tat we lack of the winning mentality.. not as disappointed as we are supposed to feel..
it's a game we played all our players and learning from mistakes..
i did not have a good game.. but i learnt mistakes from wat ronglie told me.. some moves used were good against little kids.. but it's not when it's against bigger players.. those jiazhu players.. remember the last game before this 3rd and 4th placing, we were against a team consist half of national squad.. we fare well and lost to them by 6..

Ronglie did pointed out to me tat i used to play center, i have to get the explosive and agressive plays.. yeah.. he's right..
before my injury, i was much faster and more jumpy..
something i had to get back.. my agressiveness and explosiveness.. something to lose?
weight of cos.. been a problem to me since the last ngee ann trainings..
i put on weight and feeling heavy as i run, like in my secondary sch days...
haha..

ya.. definitely gonna hit the gym during my two months break.. lose some weight and gain muscles.. but all this can be done after my bloody exams.. hell shit..

hello everybody

2008-08-04T00:31:00.002+08:00

POLITE games had ended.. NP team got 4th .. =)
wasnt a veri good outing for me.. but it's all over now..
CCK cup is next.. i will be playing for cckcc for the inter-constituency this yr, but will be playing for nanyang csc for the boon lay cup i guess..

won zone 1 and lost to cashew csc today.. by a few pts..
a veri good start for us.. shots were made and rebounds were collected..
all went well until the philipino referees decided to join us in the contest in who shall win this match..
bad calls were made, travelling, blocking, offensive fouls all tat cost us the game..
several players were arguing with the ref and obviously it had stirred up unwanted feelings and we played bad basketball..
three of our centers fouled out and with 3mins plus remain but we were still leading..

easy baskets were made as we do not secure the rebounds.. i know rebounding is veri important now so i would try to help out as much, but to no avail..

i know i can do more and better in the defensive side..
although collecting 20+ pts for the team, i still think that i had not done enough..
if our defensive effort can be raised, i believe we would not have lost.. is a game we should and could win..
but it's okay, won the next match and we will be in the semi.. =)

exams are around the corner.. now definitely not in the mood to study.. so much competitions are going on.. next i dunno whether i should play for the upcoming mens open.. my fren had called me to go whye nam with him.. but unsure whether i will be playing or not..
stamina and confidence is wat laoheng highlighted to me for not playing me in the POLITE games.. but it's okay.. i will get it back slowly.. =)

GOOD LUCK

2008-07-21T22:50:00.000+08:00

Good Luck NP Team =)

'dont wanna play anymore'

2008-07-17T20:51:00.002+08:00

NP lost to NYP..
i wasnt sad, sian, or pitied for the team..
i feel nth.. cos i din play.. win or loss doesn't matter to me..
after the debrief.. i saw some unhappy faces.. yeah.. i doze off when laoheng was speaking..

been 2nd consecutive matches i sat out for the whole game..
i got no mood to play basketball for NGEE ANN.. yes.. NGEE ANN..
i duno why now..
maybe im not a good player.. i dun deserve the any minutes on court..

at first before the start of the first game against sp.. my confidence was veri high.. the most confident in my three yrs in ngee ann.. i 'knew' i got minutes to play against sp..
but why am i so confident im going to play.. alot my frens said i had improve as a player.. even laoheng oso told me that everytime i got the ball, get into the paint and attack the basket.. he highlighted to me my good points as a basketball player cos he knoe i can score points from there.. and he told me how i score many points before i was out against tp 2 yrs back..
and tat is why i think i will play against sp..
but now i dunno why he's rotating the few usual players even though they were not at their best. no offence to the usual players but i really think other players can be at their best against diff oponents rite?

now im lost of confidence.. i dunno how to get it back..
i told myself against nyp i will be playing but again i was left out..
the motivation and confidence had lost..
i remembered how pp players coaches tell me tat be ready for any matches even though u not playing.. yea.. even though im ready, i do not have the confidence anymore..

now i know how my players feel in the game of Football Manager.. getting left out by me..

now deciding whether to go down rp on monday not...

Some playing time pls..

2008-07-15T23:25:00.002+08:00

finally pol-ite games start..
first match against sp and we lost.. by 1 pt..
not a veri good first outing as we cant capture the win..

we could have won the game..
i did not play the match.. but it's okay.. juz sitting by the side to cheer for the team den it's good for me already..
when sitting on the bench, i got a big urge to take points..
juz tat i din get the chance to go up.. i know tat the next few matches i will be going to play
eh! laoheng.. waiting hor! *&@%$
have to score as much points as i could..

now tired le.. going to slp.. update more later
=)

2008-05-20T23:37:00.002+08:00

had np training today.. and guess who's back..?
yeah.. it's leung waiming man..
lol.. get bigger in size sia... think 10 or 20 yrs more down the road,he will become a vending machine sia.. haha
guess it's the fun we have together with the np team tat brought him back..
juz playing 5 on 5 throughout the whole training..
laoheng was busy playing with two gals from the gals team.. haha..

shit la.. common test is juz two weeks away from now..
i dun even know wat my teachers are teaching.. and i had to even score as high as i could so i can have a better 2nd half of the sem.. =(

today juz feeling abit down.. maybe due to wat happen to training..
gets tired easily and can't play well..
darn..

nw going slp.. teacher aim me liao.. cant be late for tmr lesson..
nights!

sad me

2008-05-16T16:17:00.002+08:00

back home from sch.. decided to skip np training..
miss two fridays in a row.. sms gab tat 'i have project' to do.. guess it will be easier for him to explain to laoheng instead of 'i dunno','not sure' when coach ask for me..
hot weather, shaky knee, bad stamina.. =/
know tat the selection is coming.. coach deciding to kick some players out..
swear tat next fri i will definitely come.. =)

hai....
i muz start searching for all the gals' frenster in np....
i muz find her in frenster man..
it's been so long since i have feelings with a gal..
she appears almost every thurs and fris.. and on both days,u can always see me in canteen 4..
do not knoe her name or whether she got a bf not.. =(
although she looks ugly or funny when she eats, i still find her cute man...haha.

everytime when thinking of approaching her, the tiny little timid side of me always shows up..
arrgh! why?? can the sch sell alcohol or something tat can boost my courage?
my heart thumps hard and fast whenever her eyes wander towards me..
this is the first time i feel this way in my 3 yrs in poly..
cant she be alone one time? juz one time................
she's in my mind now.. no matter wat things i do..
hai...

gotta lost 10kg in few weeks time..
always says tat but din manage to succeed..
weight is slowly increasing.. maybe i din train as much or i kept eating after training...!
den after tat i can gym all i wan.. especially my knee...
it muz be strong and fine to finish all my competitions..

tat's all i can say today..
gonna set friendster as my homepage now.... see ya =)

=)

2008-05-14T00:22:00.002+08:00

pon my first two hours of IS..
my fren sms me and tell me to provide a mc if not i will get debarred..
oh man.. the word "DEBARRED"
yes.. i have to admit i've been skipping classes.. better change my habit or else im gonna be a year 4 student =X
had done my presentation for WISP.. im doing cashless careless.. quite a tough topic i would sae.
and i got a mission= to know tat china gal in my class.. she is sweet looking..
believe tat she took picures of me while im presenting.. =X haha..
and she happens to be in my ex classmates' class..
guess gonna get her num soon.. =)

after WISP,i headed down to SGH.. i have to drop by there to ask suelyn abt my knee..
always feeling pain recently whenever i try to jump hard or kick hard.. a real sharp pain which can hinder every movement of mine.. =(

After some massaging, she told me the acl is still intact.. it's probably because of the lack of menicus which the bone hit the bone.. guess im right.. it's the menicus problem..
she den told me to keep strengthening..
yayayayaya.. again strengthening..
argh.. ok.. i got no choice..
honestly, ever since i was discharged, i had stop strengthening my muscles.. i bluffed her tat i've been training my leg every week.. she looked at my muscles and said so small... kao..

upon hearing my knee is OK, i wanted to resume my training.. been eating alot these days.. have to shed the weights of me..
den after training,went to al azhar to eat and slack.. then head home..
tmr kaixuan's match.. against paya lebar again at 8pm..
guess i wont be going cos im not match fit..
=) kaixuan jiayou.. =)

AND oh ya.. gab.. better tell me ur address soon.. if not i will end up playing back cckcsc..
haha

out

2008-05-09T23:24:00.002+08:00

sorry mates..
for telling a lie tat i got project to do..
in fact i am too tired for training..
i told gab and ray tat im not going for np training due to projects.. thanks for helping me to bluff laoheng.

den instead of training, i went down to my house bb court to play basketball..
guess tat it was the fun i usually had with my frens there tat lure me there.. haha..
but i hurt myself...

i slightly sprained my ankle, i tot it was nth as i can continue playing..
den after tat i hurt my knee again...it's not serious.. juz thinking maybe because it's lack of the menicus part.. =(
gonna find the therapist for a reassurance =(
and oso realise i pulled my hamstring slightly.. strained.
argh! fuck!

wont be attending trainings and the And1 league matches for a few weeks.
oso a time for me to reflect myself why the performance during And1 tournament like tat...

jiayou kaixuan.. =)

juz wat's wrong with me?

2008-05-07T22:44:00.002+08:00

wat's wrong with me?
had played for kaixuan in the And1 league and had won payalebar and yuhua.
glad tat the team won.. enjoy every moment during the match..
enjoy sitting down with my mates and making fun of the one playing.. haha.
but there's something wrong.. i cant play wat i wan to play..
usually in my trainings or juz playing leisurely, i can score like how i wan to.
but this tournament i cant play out wat i wanted to play.. imagine i got one 1!!! point in both matches.. i know points or statistis are not important.. but im really not helping the team..

isit because im those player who can train well and cant play well in competitions?or isit im not ready?
i feel im too rush to get points or trying to make something happen..

i've also realised wat alex said is true..
he told me i did not pose a threat when having the ball..
yea.. i think so..

so wat on earth happens..
i muz do something...

can anyone help me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
mates?

Fatigue within me

2008-05-03T01:01:00.003+08:00

juz back from the last training of the week (NP).. juz some shooting drills..
did 100 3points and 50 free throws..
i din know i can shoot tat well honestly.. haha..
manage to complete the task.. dunno if the others finish it..

tmr will be playing the first match of the And1 league tournament..
against ye cheng yuhua.. at 7pm at Paya Lebar Kovan CC..
hopefully i can do well in tmr match and wishing that the shooting drills i did juz now pay off..
let's not underestimate the oponent and start the league well by winning..

after training, went to have dinner with ying xian ,gab and weijun at bukit timah hawker center.
stay there for quite long ,chit-chatting.. have some fun before going home..

seriously.. this few days im veri tired.. i even pon those morning lessons..
i also realised that my knee could not take it anymore.. i had to stand sideway shooting balls..
and afraid tat it will affect tmr match.. maybe because i did not ice my knee as often as i used to..

really hope tat the water under my skin of my knee can go off... it's abit swelling and hopefully by tmr the water can go off...

rest well..

A Day SPOILT !$%^#

2008-04-30T23:23:00.002+08:00

Man united 1 Barcelona 0
Scholes scored.. good for united and their fans..

was happily watching the united-barca highlights in youtube when i decided to di-siao someone from my msn list.. cos her nick sounds so happy ma..
i told her tat man united wont win this season.. and all of sudden the conversation became so serious.. telling me to respect the team one's supporting..
-_-" oh well.. ok.. i sae juz jk all this.. trying to tell her it isnt something we gonna seriously "debate" abt.. and she juz told me off and wrote tat in her blog.. and saying tat she had juz delete some shitty pp from her msn...
tat was something which really pissed me off...!

HELLO!!!! U're the one who added me in ur msn okay....
and still expecting me to ask who are u for a couple of times..
kelyn,kelyn,kelyn is wat u said..
and u expecting me to know who is kelyn??
cant even give a proper intro abt urself but now i guess i know who's kelyn now..
something? an unreasonable girl...

asking me to respect the club one's supporting when she called Chelsea a "chelsai" ?
who's tat shit..? a pot calling a kettle black?
i know all pp spammed u telling how united will lose.. but cant u get right things right,before even telling pp off?
wat an idiot.. still openly wrote tat in her blog, deleting some shit pp..
i even post a shoutout tat u are the one who added me and the one who is not respecting any teams is u and u calling me a shit?
and then u clear ur shoutout or tagbox juz to get away? tat's wat i think for ur actions done
cant even take jokes well and wanna be such a die hard fan of man united??
dun let me see u in sch ok..

enough of idiot.. basketball next
i recently found out tat i dun find any joy playing for cckcsc..
some pp i cant work with,some pp who find speaking to me is a problem, some pp who i dun see in any trainings, some pp who think highly of themselves..
i decided to sae this in my blog cos i dun wanna hide the feelings within me..
juz find no joy playing for cckcsc..

and juz now after kaixuan's training, gab told me to play for nanyang csc and all a while im excited over it.. i dunno why?haha

but i decided to give it a try for this yr cckcsc cos the team now is stronger than the previous yr..
hopefully some things change..

tmr no sch.. labour day =)

Trainings trainings trainings

2008-04-28T23:20:00.002+08:00

So much things happened this month..

sch starts, final yr project,NP selections and trainings,kaixuan trainings, And1 league tournaments and even re-selection of captain! (haha)

Some stir ups in the ngee ann basketball team.. after waiming decided not to play basketball.
Captaincy was appointed to SeeGuan and he planned to change the coach.As he wanted to win, he told thomas abt his idea of changing a coach and bringing in mingxiang. I'm probably the last one to know abt this news and was completely startled, thinking he shoud lead the team, not change the team rite?
maybe he got his own way of thinking, but i think he should consult us before telling thomas abt the changing of coach.

Discussions were held but i overslept at home.. heard from jinjian and demin tat the coach remains but the captain goes... hahah

A new captain is voted out and daryl got the most votes follow by gabriel and jinjian as vice..
i voted gab as the captain and jj,daryl the vice..
but not much differences anyway.. a more popular captain i guess...
hopefully.. there's something ngee ann can achieve in my last yr..

And1 league gonna start this saturday at paya lebar kovan against yuhua zone 2 at 7pm..
got tired by the trainings recently,lots of icing for my knees.. hopefully both can bring me further.. it's been so long since i got so much trainings.. i'm happy abt it and coach told me to train in tongwhye too.. another training.. =/

lastly, nth much in sch.. final yr project veri relax =)
other groups had started their reasearch during lessons whereas i can enjoy myself with the freetime,gaming running around in sch,gyming during lessons.. supervisors and lecturers in charge of our project(liquid nitrogen ice cream) always gone missing.. it's either they have labs or classes... not much info regarding wat we gonna do in this project..
hope to change to another project or i really cant enjoy my two months vacation..
tmr ngee ann training... =)
slp early..

Where's the touch?

2008-04-07T23:31:00.002+08:00

dribbles,speed,stamina,left handles are things which will make me better... i guess..

New updates

2008-03-08T02:05:00.002+08:00

It's been so long since i last wrote my blog.. and even forgot i got one..
been playing basketball for almost everyday... =(
getting afraid of basketball soon..

made a lot new frens ever since the court reopens..
get even closer with my neighbours too.. in fact i see them almost everyday...
had a lot of fun together...

juz now, at abt 12 plus, was chatting with frens in my msn when suddenly i feel a little hungry..
i went down to the mac below my house and grab a bite..
was on my way there when my fren ah yong called me asking me where to go tmr..
was happily chatting with him when i saw few guys loitering around near the basketball court, but guess it was none of my business..
den i saw someone following me, guess tat he was heading to the mac as well..
juz when i was abt to turn, tat guy( a small little guy dressing in green and in his skinny jeans, walking like someone had juz poked his ass, looking sibei guai lan) ask me something..
here's a little conversation which i think it was stupid and funny...

Little guy:你是哪里人？
Me: 什么哪里人，我住这里。。
Little guy: 你是哪里人？
Me: 我不是什么哪里人。。
Little guy: 你走路可以走好一点来吗？
Me:我走路这样关你什么事。。

He then turned back and walked away..
i was a bit pissed when he asked me those stupid qns, spoiling my mood to eat..
and this little conversation i think was overheard by my fren.. he was like so enthusiastic all of sudden.. he ask me where am i and he's coming to reach me...
i waited in the mac and rapidly, he was there with me asking wat happen..
den he contacted his other fren ah hong who lives on the ninth floor above me down to talk..
we met and started talking abt this things..
both of them were fighters in their younger days, knowing their background earlier...

then my frens went to confront them and happen tat one of them is their fren's sis.. they were happily chatting instead but heard from ah hong.. a few of the guys came and asked “an zua" in hokkien.. then hong lit up his cigarette and flexed one of his legs, guess he was trying to show his fully tattooed leg..
and everything went right again...

those small little kids are the ones im dulan with...
wat the hell are they doing late in the night and trying to find troubles...
even if they wanna find troubles, still stupidly pick a guy of my size...
haven even completed their puberty stage wanna pick me for troubles
feel like beating them up..
seriously, if that little guy continue making me piss, i will throw a punch down rite into his eye..

guess the next time when i saw that guy who ask silly qns, i will stare at him..
wtf.. dunno why kids these days look and grow as if there are food shortage in singapore.. so skinny and short... and wanna be so guai lan somemore...

brain with weeds growing and abnormal size shrinkage..
if they look good i dun mind them asking me silly qns..
gotta beat up all those teck whye sec guai lan kia.. who wanna join me...?

New basketball court

2007-11-23T23:26:00.000+08:00

finally after 1 yr plus, cck cc basketball court had reopen..
finally waited for this day..
in the morning,while going to sch, i saw a blanga worker staring at the board..
and i never realise the rim was put up
when i return home.. i saw the rim...
looks like those tournament court.. nice rim to shoot ...
den immediately my frens sms me down to play..

den after some shooting, decided to go to other place to play..
play with some of my fren's frens.. din know some of them had represented combine sch red b4..
after the whole game..
feeling veri tired.. it's been so long since i played so seriously
sprained my little finger and elbow..
cant extend my arm straight..

and recently i was hooked up by a game.. DOTA
(thanks to marc who gave me warcraft too when i only wan FM 08.. lol)
once i tot the game was stupid...
clicking mouse to kill the monster
annoying clicking sounds which disrupt classes
making classroom like a lan shop

but now i was trying hard to learn to play the game...
how contradicting am i

shall stop here..
going one on one with marc now.. =)

Am I A Ball Hog?

2007-11-11T00:23:00.000+08:00

sometimes when i play basketball, i will think this way..
maybe because the time i have the ball is much more than my other players
but am i a ball hog?
let my bb frens decide ba.. tell me if im a ball hog..

when will cck cc basketball court reopen..
miss playing there with all my frens..
it's the place which bring us together there.. =)
all the jokers and frens were there..
still remember i will always go down to play after sch..
the ground line had drawn, shelter is built, court is open to everybody...
but there's no rim...! where's the board and the rim?

went to play basketball at night...
jump alot.. like the feeling of jumping which was lost for abt 1yr plus..
guess i am getting back the passion le.. =)
bb call me!

Fun

2007-11-03T00:18:00.000+08:00

i went to sch late...
so tired..
had a basketball session with Gabriel, Ying Xian, Daryl,Demin and i new make fren, Dom(daryl's newtown mate)
we had alot of fun... those china guys dun dare to take up challenge from us...
hai..
after this, we head to the bukit timah hawker centre to have our dinner..
chat alot of stuffs..
including those places in ngee ann poly which is haunted...
Blk %# and %..
till now im getting goosebumps...
no shower head, no jolin's song, no everything..
im so scared and timid sia.. y?

lol... shall end here... this sem is the most fun le ba...

Im no flirt!!

2007-10-21T00:16:00.000+08:00

eh.. marc, yingxian, chengjiang and gordan..
i no flirt la...
juz now the whole bus know im a big flirt...!
so loud...
got pretty gals inside one leh...
but i really dunno how to flirt...
a shy boy like me... really...
Marc? can u teach me?
lol..

went to suntec with my frens...
ate carl's junior even though im sick...
quite full..
saw kelly pang at bugis too..
short and skinny..
lol...
tot she wore a FBT shorts there..

eh.. im not a flirt!
no flirt...
no flirt...

Basketball-less

2007-10-19T00:00:00.000+08:00

lost against SP
by 40 pts
score: 80-40
half...

we din play well.. seems like 5th and 6th place is not important...
SP's graduating players are happy to end this IVP this way..

played in the last quarter..
not good enough.. create few opportunities for myself and some for gad..
only few went in..

think i came for the match for the sake of coming..
i came late..
was feeling sick, hot breath, feverish, back and neck pain..
coach din coach us due to his tong whye meeting..
xiuhan took over..

dun feel like playing basketball for now..
no more passion i would sae..
seriously.. i din have any rest after my operation..
after the end of three months rehab.. i went on to run and play basketball..
my graft needs time to heal.. to attach to the bone..
u cant rush things.. the graft needs abt 1 yr to heal.. doc told me months back.. i ignore..

guess this is the time i can rest now..
IVP getting a 6th position out of 9 teams?
SIM and SMU i wun sae.. they are easier teams..
RP? i wun sae too..
finishing above them aren't anything to be proud of..
roughly i can guess tat there's some problems or watever in NP team..
saw some of them whisper to each other with their stern and serious face..
dunno wat are they talking abt..
i dun care now..
i juz wan a rest..

seriously.. i dun wan anyone to tell me im playing little because of my knee..
laoheng said to me a couple of times..
juz now xiuhan told me again..
when can i stop hearing that..
im confident of myself..
im recovering well.. im not injured! i dun feel any pain or discomfort in my knee..
the physiotherapist was oso confident in me and had discharged me..
my knee i know how to protect..
i jumped to my fullest during the match juz now and landed properly..
i have to admit.. i hestitate to jump..
but i know how to protect my knee..

perhaps im abit rusty..not as fast or strong as b4..
i know wat to do during tis time round..
i wont go and look for the passion in basketball.. instead i will let it find me..
strengthening my knee is next..
Sean told me juz now.. the more u strengthen, maybe u will play more..
i wan to jump higher than now in future..
maybe some of u will think tat's a wishful thinking of mine after having plagued by this injury..
but im gonna start training..

seriously.

No more physios!

2007-10-16T20:56:00.000+08:00

YES! NO MORE PHYSIOS FOR ME AGAIN!!

Finally after 1 yr, i was discharged from the hospital le..

Today, went for my physio for my biodex strength test...
if i pass the test, i need not come anymore
thanks choon leong and mingkai for accompanying me to the sgh..
in the end,i did it.. the results...

Biodex test
quads-97%
hams-93%

my physio therapist, suelyn, oso ended the session by telling me my right leg is stronger by 8% and my left knee improved alot...
feel so happy that i had graduated from my physiotherapy... but i know i have to continue strengthening to minimise the chance of reinjuring myself..

after my last physio, went to town with my friends and ate alot...
get veri tired at the end of the day..
rainy days... cold sia..

been sleepless over nights...
Y?

Sch start

2007-10-15T22:16:00.000+08:00

Sch started today...
couldn't slp last night..
so i went to the fridge to find cough syrup.. hopefully can make my drowsy and fall asleep..
but the effect takes so long and i slpt at 5plus am..
class at 10am.. but i overslpt and came to sch at around 1pm..
first day pon lesson liao.. =/

den after sch end, went to bukit panjang plaza to walk...
so tired.. hopefully i can slp

SMU and NTU

2007-10-13T01:02:00.000+08:00

played in both matches..
won SMU 45 pts and lost NTU 15 pts..
was brought off after a while in the court as i was not mentally prepared..
coach said he was afraid i will get injured again if im not mentally prepared..
din expect i will be playing..

now fighting for 5th and 6th place against SP at SP this thursday..
i got knee pain...
dunno isit because against SMU i landed on my recovering leg when rebounding or from the fall when i was going to sub for gab.. slippery floor, useless shoes..

knee hurts alot when i try to run and sprint or jump.. even if i was mentally prepared for the NTU game, think my leg cant take it...

THURSDAY VS SP
muz win...

2nd phase player?

2007-10-11T00:52:00.000+08:00

played against RP
won
but disappointed
will rather laoheng dun use me..
was not even playing like a secondary sch player

disappointed cos only the score margin is big enough,
i will den get to play...
am not a 2nd phase player
i wan to win

not prepared to come on as a sub during the game..
tot 12 players used up..
loosen my shoelaces
but laoheng came over to tell me and gab to get ready..
wtf.. was he consoling us,bluffing us? or really gonna play us?
i dunno..
i went up,missed a shot, came back to the bench and warmed it up again..

i was thinking maybe if i go nyp, i can play more under guang fu..
but back to reality, i was like a shevchenko in chelsea..
he choose to rely more on yr 1 players than players who brought him a 2nd and 3rd position previous yr..(although i din played much cos of injury)
not saying our yr 1 is bad... we have good players like weijun, see guan and raven..
three players whom laoheng praised juz now..

dunno wat's up with me.. tat's probably wat i was thinking at the moment..
now if my coach wan to play me.. i juz play lor..
if not, den nvm lor..
win or lose i dun care so much liao..
it makes me feel like among the ones who were fighting for victory does not include me..

heck care..

Lost NUS

2007-10-09T02:13:00.000+08:00

Just as expected... i sat down on bench for the whole game..
i dun seems to sulk or asking myself why i din play..
i believe it's not the coaching problems..
im juz not aggressive enough or strong..

Np team played quite well against the NUS team.. but defensive rebounds are not doing us the favour or i shall sae we are not doing well on our defensive rebounds..
tat's why we lose the game.. they got alot of 2nd attempts..

i played basketball since sec 1...
this is the second time i was benched for the whole game..
remembered the first time was against Tagawa in the second round of youth cup..
before tat i was the 6th or 7th player in my team..
den the next match against the combined red sch, i decided not to go..
i bluffed to my coach saying that i got test.. but in fact i went to play basketball with my frens..
=X ( shh..dun tell any coaches, especially Guang Fu!)

and tonight is my 2nd time.. i really hope there wont be another time although there are high chances getting benched again.. next match against RP on wed..

i felt abit better when daryl told me suddenly and he said if i was like my yr 1 before i was injured, tonight i will be playing...
thanks...
but i need to work hard to get back to the same again..
poor knee..

win RP and SMU first before the tough fight against NTU..

Start Of IVP

2007-10-08T00:17:00.000+08:00

tmr will be the start of IVP.. finally, the long-awaited day has come..
tmr will be against NUS.. i firmly believe tat if we, the NP team win this game.. we will fancy a veri high chance to play in the semi-finals..
we have to fight hard... guess so will the NUS team..
we can win...

had my dinner at KFC with marc and ying xian.. luckily they jio-ed me out if not i would be bored to death at home.. nth to do..
before eating my dinner.. i went to have some shootings with my fren,Sean...
he is playing for SP and will be playing against NYP tmr..
talked alot abt our teams and stuffs..
even scaring him with our Mr Flawless( Raven) =)

after dinner, decided to dye my hair.. there's abit left so i finished the bottle..
den went on to find some games in Yahoo..
not bad.. found Monopoly.. although playing one on one with the computer player.. i found some contentness by winning the computer by alot.. spent abt 40 mins to get it bankrupt.. =)

but SHIT! i forgot abt my hair... needed 15 mins to get it done but i exceeded the timing..
SHIT! came out of the bathroom with red hair.. dad was shocked.. AIyo!

die la.. wat am i going to do tmr.. someone will talk abt my hair.. seeking lots of attention..
marc still told me 'ang ang' means lucky.. wth..
but hopefully get some lucky shots tmr too..=/

gotta do something abt my hair...=(
finished!

Anxiety...Ankle...

2007-10-06T00:02:00.000+08:00

had a friendly match again with tong whye team...
this time we lost.. not because we played badly.. they played really well..
not all of the NP players came.. five had their inter-con match..

i could say that i had played slightly better than the first friendly.. cos i had take note of wat the coach saes and wan from me.. trying to get rid of my weaknesses by playing strongly and more aggressively.. get some points b4 coming out. den i couldn't continue after landing from a jump shot..

sharp pain was wat i felt.. i got subbed out in time.. then, i told the coach i cant continue as i felt soreness in my left ankle.. laoheng told me to rest and dun play anymore..
now some of us had roughly knew who are the 15 players to play for NP..
JIAYOU!

hopefully i can shake off this ankle problem before IVP which is on next mon.. first match against NUS.. a strong team..
had to play well..

i need a new pair of basketball shoes..!LAOHENG!!

How to play basketball?

2007-10-04T00:32:00.000+08:00

how do i play basketball when i..
have no confidence?
am not as strong and aggressive as b4?
am injury prone?

today, had a friendly match with tong whye.. i know i din play well..
it's been a tough and physical game..
having defend against the better players there, i had exposed all weaknesses within me..

after the match, laoheng told the whole team how each of us fare during the friendly..
i was told tat i am not as strong and aggressive as b4 and oso he's afraid i might injure my knee again..
i know my knee is not strong enough and tat is why i cant be aggressive..
now having hurt my back and ankle.. things look worse for me..
i can only defend stronger players but not the faster ones..

overall,almost everybody in the np team played really well tonight.. we won the tong whye jiazhu even though the coach told us that they are not in full force and they had some missing players..

IVP is juz 5days away..
i know wat i need to do..
i muz change my mindset.. overcoming the psychological barrier..
i muz get my confidence back
i muz oso get stronger in the fastest time and do something abt my stamina(although coach din mention,but i know my stamina is bad..)
no more injuries...

But am i really to play?
i will not be surprise if i was not selected for the IVP..

Stronger than yesterday..

2007-09-30T19:37:00.000+08:00

waking up so early in the morning and got nth to do..
so i decided to spend the whole morning downloading songs...

den in the afternoon, decided to spend some hrs working out..
did lots of push ups and some shoulders exercises..
till i cant lift up both my arms..
i know i have to do this cos IVP will be starting in a week time..
all matches will be physically played,, and of cos i do not wish to lose out to them..

it will be my first IVP =)

Hope?

2007-09-29T23:05:00.000+08:00

have my np training in the morning...but coach din come..
we did some shooting and discussed abt some offensive plays...
hot morning and veri tired..
after tat carried on playing basketball in the evening..

8 oct is the start of the IVP... first match against NUS.. playing at NTU-NIE at 845pm
seriously.. i think that np cant play far with the standard like this..
we were grouped along with NTU,NUS,SIM and RP.. it's a tougher group compare to the other..
if we win our opening match, i believe we will have a chance..
but how can we win when our trainings are so little and slack... mostly playing 5 on 5..
hai.. had been tiring for the past few weeks.. need to get my slp back..

Fucking Villain

2007-09-23T22:50:00.000+08:00

had my np chalet on fri and sat.. have so much fun playing with the guys and girls there..
got sunburn when i got back.. red and hot..

waiming and jamie during a forfeit in a game---exchanging clothes.. =)

haha..

after the bbq on sat night.. got home early cos i got an early basketball match the next day

lost...

against kembangan

by 4pts..

trailed alot by the end of the first half..but everyone in the team gave their 101% and soon caught up near the end of the game..

i was veri tired.. i knew all the compiled fatigue i had during the last 2 days of the chalet was overcoming me.. i did lots of warm-ups,running outside the court, stretching both my legs more times than my usual ones..but my muscles around me are all so tight.. i told my fren not to start me as im not prepared.. im afraid i would injure myself again...

went in and played the game.. i felt as if my whole person was on the court but my spirit was somewhere else.. i couldn't concentrate.. i had tried alot of times to get some pts but still i couldn't.. i din defend well.. din covered up spaces left by my teammates.. gave them easy baskets..

i only got 3 pts for the whole game... =(

how can i played like this..? all i felt was the tiredness within me..

we got back in the last quarter and trailing by 2 pts in the last 30 secs..

but it was me who ruined the chance to win or tie the game..

it was my silly mistake to ruin the whole game.. everyone was playing hard to fight close with the opposition.. but i made a stupid mistake at the dying moment..

i was at the sideline catching the ball which kah cheong passed to me.. i caught it but it went off my hands and that was out of bound.. fuck!

then they got their 2 free throws made cos of our team fouls..

we lost by 4 points.. then again we knew we muz go for a 3pt shot,but i din.. kah cheong gave it to me.. i drived into the paint and shoot at the 'A' pt.. but air ball.. the game end..

the whole game.. i was juz searching and trying to bring myself back.. all the shots i shoot were either air balls or forced shots.. i din defend well.. all the rebounds i got are those players who tapped away.. i should not have played in the last few minutes after jian rong fouled out.. if i din played, perhaps, we had a chance to win or tie the game.. but the silly mistake of mine costs the whole team.. i was utterly disappointed..

sorry guys... i knew that the team does not win or lose because of one player.. but truly.. it was my fault.. i got the team lost.. thanks for cheering me up after the game.. i was quietly blaming myself at one corner and was veri disappointed with myself..

i know i have to change the way i play.. IVP is around the corner.. some players in np will not be playing.. but i do not wan to be the player to fill up the spaces in the team.. i wan to be a player who a coach wans..

sigh..

who's tat fucking villain today?

it's me..

My injury

2007-09-18T23:01:00.000+08:00

today, i went for np training.. two times a day.. one in the morning and one in the evening...
in between,i still got physio therapy but it's easy for me...
tired after the whole day... non-stop perspiring..
think i sprained my ankle slightly in the morning and sprained my finger at night..
fat finger.. =(

during np training, an accident happened... we lost a speedy forward, ah pow to an injury.. he din land well after a lay-up.. grabbing his knee when he's was down.. at first i tot he was jk with us,but later i began to realise it's no laughing matter... and it's almost the same i had a yr ago... feeling sad for him.. but muz jiayou.. everything's going to be fine..

1 yr back.. i was playing the POL-ITE cup in my first yr.. was delighted to get a chance to play for ngee ann.. but this joy last for only the first three mins of the game... VS TP...

i was hit by my teammate when boxing out to get the rebound.. his leg went in hard into the side of my left knee.. the next moment, i heard an audible 'clak' sound.. something snapped in my knee... i was down on the ground grabbing my knee.. and was carried off by my mates..
i knew it was all over for me... when i try to stand up during a time-out.. my knee gave way... and i fell again...
was brought home by my fren as he stays near to me.. got a cab home cos i totally cant walk..
and at night when i slp,i had to put a pillow under my knee so i can limit my pain and slp..

the next day, when i woke up.. i had totally forgot abt wat had happened to my knee but only to feel the pain when i try to get off my bed..
went to the polyclinic by my dad's car although it was just a less than 5 min walk.. had an x ray and was referred to the SGH..

i went online to search for the injury i had and found out Michael Owen got the same injury as mine..
When the MRI report is out, it had confirmed with me tat i had a complete tear of ACL, strained MCL and a torn meniscus..
finally accepted the fact that i will need to get a reconstruction if i wan to run again..
not at all shocking maybe because i had expected it through some research abt it..
6 to 9 mths recovery period.. the worst injury i got..

went for the sugery on 2nd march, when i woke up, i am veri happy cos i knew i had fixed my injury.. used hamstring tendons as a substitution for my torn ligament..
but the road to recovery was a tough one..
start rehab as soon as i was pushed out of the operating theatre... till now..

first three months have been battling with the pain and soreness in my knee.. but was manageable for me with some pain killers and medications....
slowly, i regained my strength and start to jog and in no time i start to jump again.. but was too low for me..

now everything is fine now and i had began my np training..

biodex test- quadriceps-93%
hamstring-83%

in two weeks time, i will have another biodex test.. if both muscles exceed 95%, i can be discharged from the hospital.. =)

i wont wan this horrible injury to ever happen to me again.. i do not wan another yr of pain and sadness.. and oso i do not wish anyone to have the same injury as me.. =/

JIAYOU!

71-59 loss

2007-09-15T23:36:00.000+08:00

ngee ann training in the morning... so tired..
rain started to pour in the middle of the training and did some drills under the shelter..
train our leg muscles and some shooting drills..
besides tat.. laoheng keep telling me to overcome my psychology barrier i had..
but i dunno how! =( why is there psychology barrier?
i dun wish to get too tired cos i will be having a match in the afternoon...

match started at 5pm at sbc... against tampines west(a rather 2 man team)..
4 players of cckcc did not come and receive a news that the coach wont be coming...
wat the fuck.. wat's the problem with this coach man.. no sense of responsibility..
giving stupid excuse like he din receive the msg.. how can it be when all 12 players received it and he dont... give a better excuse like he's not free or wat la...
how cckcc play with this kind of coach...? we got good players.. better players year by year..
but the fucking coach is the same.. all he does is to get money for 'coaching'( starting to think is he a coach??) and scolding players when he's not happy.. think we played better in the last two matches without this coach... where has ur responsibility gone? he should have know we got inter con even b4 he reached Singapore...cant he even ask when's our next match?
i only had one suggestion.. change the coach...

lost this match.. by 12 pts.. we played our best... yan ming is the best player on court.. had a good debut for cckcc... we lost because of rebounds and some easy 3 pts from their players..
we played a tight match in the first half.. not losing more than 10 pts.. however... in the third quarter.. they made some shots from the 3 pt line.. losing alot of pts.. but we fought back slowly..

we are playing with only 8 players.. i do not have the good stamina to endure in the court.. played almost 40 mins... only get to sub out to get drinks and rest only awhile b4 getting back..
played veri badly... got 15 pts... had to defend well at one side and help to attack at the other..
but i dun do well at both ends.. shoulders are stiff and trembling.. guess tat's the result of the the shooting drills during np training.. too tired to run up and down.. almost have cramps near the end of the match..
lost by 10 pts in the last 1min plus.. we had to shoot in some 3s to get back..
but i shoot all the balls whenever there's chance.. all were air balls... i knew i can pass the balls to others like kah cheong or yanming but i din..
guess at that time.. i was even too tired to think... =(

i was even accused for injuring a player who was sent to the hospital.. had quite a large tear from his lips to somewhere near his nose.. bloody mess.. guess it cant stop bleeding..
but i din injure him at all.. all i knew is tat he juz fell down behind me and i got the rebound.. i din touch him at all... hopefully he's fine..

tired.....

Np training

2007-09-14T22:48:00.000+08:00

woooooh.....!
checked my exam results in the morning b4 my training..
and hope it wont affect my mood to train..
luckily i passed all... =) if not sure sian...

had my training in the morning
and 9 of us came...
all ended fast because of rain..

after this, went to have my lunch with waiming,yingxian,gabriel,kelvin.. and decided to go to the sch library to watch some video cds.. but all ended up in the board games room... leaving waiming alone to watch his movie in the room..

had alot of fun in the room.. played Game Of Life and Risk.. im the biggest loser there man...!
got lots of fun and pon my physio at sgh.. fix another appointment on tues and tat was straight after my training.. =/

knew i gotto buck up in the training.. laoheng had said this training is all focus on defence.. =(
need to try veri hard to get myself back..

this ivp selection is hard... =(

Earthquake..

2007-09-12T21:52:00.000+08:00

wat a special day for me..... lol..
this is the first time i had felt tremors in my house..

i was doing some push-ups in my room and when i got up,i felt giddy suddenly..
i tot i was going to die,cos i remembered yingxian mentioned earlier during our np training tat we will be the next Antonio Puerta( a footballer who died because of heart attack during a game)..
then i saw my shirt which was hanging on the clothes stand moved... i quickly sat down and really felt my room was shaking... den it stopped after a while..
having met with such life-threatening situation,i went out of my room and saw my mum and bro standing up too.. they said the sofa was shaking... i knew there was an earthquake near singapore.. and a strong one..
quickly, i went to ask yingxian and marc in msn whether they feel the tremors and they said no...
marc even told me that the pp near my house is drilling ba..
cant be possible...how can they drill my whole house down...?
den later yingxian told me there was an earthquake is indonesia and ritcher scale reads 7.9..
a strong one indeed.

arrgh.. i got toothache..

NP training

2007-09-11T22:41:00.000+08:00

went for np training in the morning and it was still raining when i woke up..
not in the mood or have any energy to train.. guess it was because i slept late last night..

only 8 pp turned up for the training..
training start at 10am plus.. it was tough although it dun look like one.. juz some shootings and defend drills.. the defend drills alone can kill me.. it was all so tough.. no water and stamina..
all end around 12plus.. wat a short but tough training..
coach even told me to strengthen my legs more.. sian...
hope thurs training wont be tough.. heard will be combined with the gals.. and hope the gals can distract laoheng.. =)

heard from gabriel tat the IVP fixtures are out..
Ngee Ann are grouped along with NTU,NUS,SMU and RP...
all are tough games...
i must buck up and train well and get well-conditioned to get selected to play for my first-ever IVP after missing one in yr 1 through injury... darn..

after eating,yingxian,waiming, weijun and i took cab home... yingxian decided to come to my house for some games.. and marc joined us abit later in the afternoon.. i had fun but was tired too.. =(

before yingxian and marc left my house.. yingxian and i taught marc how to wear the contact lenses.. so troublesome...
teach so many times still dunno.. im such a fast learner.. but he....? hai..
but somehow or somewat or dunno wat.. he look rather suave.. dunno y....

=)

71-39 Victory

2007-09-09T01:15:00.000+08:00

had a haircut in the morning at around 11am plus...
then went back home and slp again.. maybe because of waking up so early..
had my dinner with marc around 5plus b4 going for my match..

met up with my mates at cck and went to aljunied...
also recieved a call from waiming tat he cant make it for the match to coach us..
initially,it was xiuhan to offer his help,but cant make it in the last min.. so had to call waiming up for his help.. but he oso cant make it in the end.. so we were without a coach and oso two of our important players,yan ming and kenny..

well.. did not start the match as i was nervous,can do more warm ups to get ready for the match.. when i saw their starters,some of them dun look like a basketballer.. they look more like a dragon boater to me..!
a tight contest in the first quarter.. lost by several pts.. our offense was not going as steady as we want..
when it was my turn to play in the second quarter.. i hope i can do much better.. the knee wrap which i bought had made good use for me.. putting less pressure and weight for me..unlike the brace..

By the end of third quarter, we had stretched our lead to abt 20+ pts.. made several fast breaks and defend well.. now it seems to be a one-sided game so sean decided to rest me and say he scared i might hurt myself again.. but i still wan to play.. it's had been so long since playing my first match and of cos i wan to play more and my knee is feeling good and normal..

Overall... i think i still din put in so much effort.. only played two quarters and had 14pts.. some easy shooting and 2 three pts out of 3 attempts.. =)
Jason got the most pts-20pts.. thanks to him and the rest of the team, we had won the team by this thick margin..

I had oso realised tat i had been playing too much on offense, neglecting the duty to defend and rebounding..
knowing tat next match is against Tampines West( a seeded team), i had to do more on defense..
and hopefully we can win...

=)

2007-09-08T00:38:00.000+08:00

finally got the knee wrap i wan at queensway...
thanks marc for accompanying me to queensway..
went to BBDC to watch marc enrol for his driving course after traveling to queensway..
return home and did alot of workout.. hopefully i can be ready for tmr match.. first game after 11mths.. =) and a good way to experiment myself on court
with waiming,my last resort coach, can we win?? =/

=)

2007-09-06T21:16:00.000+08:00

went to cck gym but the whole stadium is closed due to duno wat family day.. made a waste trip
instead, i called up Marc to accompany me to buy knee support..

went to lot 1 but do not have the one i want,so make a trip down to west mall... but to no avail too... after eating.. we both went home.. chat alot of stuffs on the way back..

went jogging at around 7pm.. know i have to jog and run more.. or else my weight is catching up..
today nth special too.. juz a normal or random day for me...

Tired

2007-09-05T23:40:00.000+08:00

went back to np to help carry the wheelchairs to United World College for the wheelpower training and i met ivor in 985 bus by chance after his driving lesson.. he was going for the training too.. glad that there's someone i knew was going too..

Upon reaching there, we ( me , mingkai, ivor and the rest, i duno their names) carry those chairs to the basketball court in the sports hall.. the court remind me of those in sbc except it's air conditioned.. went in and nobody was there except for some of the students there... we managed to borrow some balls and start playing.. while all of them wanted to play with the wheelchairs , i went to the other side to start shooting balls...

been shooting balls for 2 hrs plus.. din shoot balls for so long b4!!now my shoulders are stiff..
then, their sch volleyball team came in and wanted to use the court... but were sent back cos we book the entire hall... but one gal caught my attention.. she's the only asian among the blondes there... believe she's a mixed blood.. have a pair of nice eyes.. like tat kana attracted liao..
in the end.. they went out..
well.. i went out too..
to drink some water... =(

the training was veri relaxed compared to those basketball trainings i usually have.. only using the upper body strength and the game was fun.. din know that sitting in wheelchair and play basketball can be tat fun..

it all end abt 10pm,by that time i was veri tired.. quickly took the MRT home and on my way back, i found out lot 1 had change.. since when got tunnel one?!
den instead of waiting for my bus,i ran home.. only takes 3min plus.. wat a fast runner...

after this tiring whole day i oso found out one thing .. i cant jump shot anymore.. i dunno why.. it's either my weight is pulling me down, or my knees are not strong enough.. how can it be like tat when my first game is juz three days away...? =(

First Blog

2007-09-04T22:26:00.000+08:00

my first blog..
wanted to start blogging long ago but tests and exams had been bothering me..
now tat im free cos im having my HOLIDAYS now.. =)
free to do anything i like =)

nth to say much too on my first post
finished jogging at lamsoon, kana chase by dog.. nabei! the owner ^$%@$!
now one thing i learnt when jogging, do not overtake the dogs..

and of cos hope tat i can shed some kgs and get my knees stronger
cos this sat is my first basketball tournament ever since injuring myself in last oct..
really hope to play well against Kreta Ayer-Kim Seng..
not knowing much abt the team but cant bring myself to under-estimate them..
with new players like yan ming and jason joining us, we can win
but without prasad, we got to work hard for the rebounds...
really hope to win on this sat....