sad me

back home from sch.. decided to skip np training..
miss two fridays in a row.. sms gab tat 'i have project' to do.. guess it will be easier for him to explain to laoheng instead of 'i dunno','not sure' when coach ask for me..
hot weather, shaky knee, bad stamina.. =/
know tat the selection is coming.. coach deciding to kick some players out..
swear tat next fri i will definitely come.. =)

hai....
i muz start searching for all the gals' frenster in np....
i muz find her in frenster man..
it's been so long since i have feelings with a gal..
she appears almost every thurs and fris.. and on both days,u can always see me in canteen 4..
do not knoe her name or whether she got a bf not.. =(
although she looks ugly or funny when she eats, i still find her cute man...haha.

everytime when thinking of approaching her, the tiny little timid side of me always shows up..
arrgh! why?? can the sch sell alcohol or something tat can boost my courage?
my heart thumps hard and fast whenever her eyes wander towards me..
this is the first time i feel this way in my 3 yrs in poly..
cant she be alone one time? juz one time................
she's in my mind now.. no matter wat things i do..
hai...

gotta lost 10kg in few weeks time..
always says tat but din manage to succeed..
weight is slowly increasing.. maybe i din train as much or i kept eating after training...!
den after tat i can gym all i wan.. especially my knee...
it muz be strong and fine to finish all my competitions..

tat's all i can say today..
gonna set friendster as my homepage now.... see ya =)