Fucking Villain

had my np chalet on fri and sat.. have so much fun playing with the guys and girls there..
got sunburn when i got back.. red and hot..

waiming and jamie during a forfeit in a game---exchanging clothes.. =)

haha..

after the bbq on sat night.. got home early cos i got an early basketball match the next day

lost...

against kembangan

by 4pts..

trailed alot by the end of the first half..but everyone in the team gave their 101% and soon caught up near the end of the game..

i was veri tired.. i knew all the compiled fatigue i had during the last 2 days of the chalet was overcoming me.. i did lots of warm-ups,running outside the court, stretching both my legs more times than my usual ones..but my muscles around me are all so tight.. i told my fren not to start me as im not prepared.. im afraid i would injure myself again...

went in and played the game.. i felt as if my whole person was on the court but my spirit was somewhere else.. i couldn't concentrate.. i had tried alot of times to get some pts but still i couldn't.. i din defend well.. din covered up spaces left by my teammates.. gave them easy baskets..

i only got 3 pts for the whole game... =(

how can i played like this..? all i felt was the tiredness within me..

we got back in the last quarter and trailing by 2 pts in the last 30 secs..

but it was me who ruined the chance to win or tie the game..

it was my silly mistake to ruin the whole game.. everyone was playing hard to fight close with the opposition.. but i made a stupid mistake at the dying moment..

i was at the sideline catching the ball which kah cheong passed to me.. i caught it but it went off my hands and that was out of bound.. fuck!

then they got their 2 free throws made cos of our team fouls..

we lost by 4 points.. then again we knew we muz go for a 3pt shot,but i din.. kah cheong gave it to me.. i drived into the paint and shoot at the 'A' pt.. but air ball.. the game end..

the whole game.. i was juz searching and trying to bring myself back.. all the shots i shoot were either air balls or forced shots.. i din defend well.. all the rebounds i got are those players who tapped away.. i should not have played in the last few minutes after jian rong fouled out.. if i din played, perhaps, we had a chance to win or tie the game.. but the silly mistake of mine costs the whole team.. i was utterly disappointed..

sorry guys... i knew that the team does not win or lose because of one player.. but truly.. it was my fault.. i got the team lost.. thanks for cheering me up after the game.. i was quietly blaming myself at one corner and was veri disappointed with myself..

i know i have to change the way i play.. IVP is around the corner.. some players in np will not be playing.. but i do not wan to be the player to fill up the spaces in the team.. i wan to be a player who a coach wans..

sigh..

who's tat fucking villain today?

it's me..