Stronger than yesterday..

waking up so early in the morning and got nth to do..
so i decided to spend the whole morning downloading songs...

den in the afternoon, decided to spend some hrs working out..
did lots of push ups and some shoulders exercises..
till i cant lift up both my arms..
i know i have to do this cos IVP will be starting in a week time..
all matches will be physically played,, and of cos i do not wish to lose out to them..

it will be my first IVP =)

Hope?

have my np training in the morning...but coach din come..
we did some shooting and discussed abt some offensive plays...
hot morning and veri tired..
after tat carried on playing basketball in the evening..

8 oct is the start of the IVP... first match against NUS.. playing at NTU-NIE at 845pm
seriously.. i think that np cant play far with the standard like this..
we were grouped along with NTU,NUS,SIM and RP.. it's a tougher group compare to the other..
if we win our opening match, i believe we will have a chance..
but how can we win when our trainings are so little and slack... mostly playing 5 on 5..
hai.. had been tiring for the past few weeks.. need to get my slp back..

Fucking Villain

had my np chalet on fri and sat.. have so much fun playing with the guys and girls there..
got sunburn when i got back.. red and hot..

waiming and jamie during a forfeit in a game---exchanging clothes.. =)

haha..

after the bbq on sat night.. got home early cos i got an early basketball match the next day

lost...

against kembangan

by 4pts..

trailed alot by the end of the first half..but everyone in the team gave their 101% and soon caught up near the end of the game..

i was veri tired.. i knew all the compiled fatigue i had during the last 2 days of the chalet was overcoming me.. i did lots of warm-ups,running outside the court, stretching both my legs more times than my usual ones..but my muscles around me are all so tight.. i told my fren not to start me as im not prepared.. im afraid i would injure myself again...

went in and played the game.. i felt as if my whole person was on the court but my spirit was somewhere else.. i couldn't concentrate.. i had tried alot of times to get some pts but still i couldn't.. i din defend well.. din covered up spaces left by my teammates.. gave them easy baskets..

i only got 3 pts for the whole game... =(

how can i played like this..? all i felt was the tiredness within me..

we got back in the last quarter and trailing by 2 pts in the last 30 secs..

but it was me who ruined the chance to win or tie the game..

it was my silly mistake to ruin the whole game.. everyone was playing hard to fight close with the opposition.. but i made a stupid mistake at the dying moment..

i was at the sideline catching the ball which kah cheong passed to me.. i caught it but it went off my hands and that was out of bound.. fuck!

then they got their 2 free throws made cos of our team fouls..

we lost by 4 points.. then again we knew we muz go for a 3pt shot,but i din.. kah cheong gave it to me.. i drived into the paint and shoot at the 'A' pt.. but air ball.. the game end..

the whole game.. i was juz searching and trying to bring myself back.. all the shots i shoot were either air balls or forced shots.. i din defend well.. all the rebounds i got are those players who tapped away.. i should not have played in the last few minutes after jian rong fouled out.. if i din played, perhaps, we had a chance to win or tie the game.. but the silly mistake of mine costs the whole team.. i was utterly disappointed..

sorry guys... i knew that the team does not win or lose because of one player.. but truly.. it was my fault.. i got the team lost.. thanks for cheering me up after the game.. i was quietly blaming myself at one corner and was veri disappointed with myself..

i know i have to change the way i play.. IVP is around the corner.. some players in np will not be playing.. but i do not wan to be the player to fill up the spaces in the team.. i wan to be a player who a coach wans..

sigh..

who's tat fucking villain today?

it's me..

My injury

today, i went for np training.. two times a day.. one in the morning and one in the evening...
in between,i still got physio therapy but it's easy for me...
tired after the whole day... non-stop perspiring..
think i sprained my ankle slightly in the morning and sprained my finger at night..
fat finger.. =(

during np training, an accident happened... we lost a speedy forward, ah pow to an injury.. he din land well after a lay-up.. grabbing his knee when he's was down.. at first i tot he was jk with us,but later i began to realise it's no laughing matter... and it's almost the same i had a yr ago... feeling sad for him.. but muz jiayou.. everything's going to be fine..

1 yr back.. i was playing the POL-ITE cup in my first yr.. was delighted to get a chance to play for ngee ann.. but this joy last for only the first three mins of the game... VS TP...

i was hit by my teammate when boxing out to get the rebound.. his leg went in hard into the side of my left knee.. the next moment, i heard an audible 'clak' sound.. something snapped in my knee... i was down on the ground grabbing my knee.. and was carried off by my mates..
i knew it was all over for me... when i try to stand up during a time-out.. my knee gave way... and i fell again...
was brought home by my fren as he stays near to me.. got a cab home cos i totally cant walk..
and at night when i slp,i had to put a pillow under my knee so i can limit my pain and slp..

the next day, when i woke up.. i had totally forgot abt wat had happened to my knee but only to feel the pain when i try to get off my bed..
went to the polyclinic by my dad's car although it was just a less than 5 min walk.. had an x ray and was referred to the SGH..

i went online to search for the injury i had and found out Michael Owen got the same injury as mine..
When the MRI report is out, it had confirmed with me tat i had a complete tear of ACL, strained MCL and a torn meniscus..
finally accepted the fact that i will need to get a reconstruction if i wan to run again..
not at all shocking maybe because i had expected it through some research abt it..
6 to 9 mths recovery period.. the worst injury i got..

went for the sugery on 2nd march, when i woke up, i am veri happy cos i knew i had fixed my injury.. used hamstring tendons as a substitution for my torn ligament..
but the road to recovery was a tough one..
start rehab as soon as i was pushed out of the operating theatre... till now..

first three months have been battling with the pain and soreness in my knee.. but was manageable for me with some pain killers and medications....
slowly, i regained my strength and start to jog and in no time i start to jump again.. but was too low for me..

now everything is fine now and i had began my np training..

biodex test- quadriceps-93%
hamstring-83%

in two weeks time, i will have another biodex test.. if both muscles exceed 95%, i can be discharged from the hospital.. =)

i wont wan this horrible injury to ever happen to me again.. i do not wan another yr of pain and sadness.. and oso i do not wish anyone to have the same injury as me.. =/

JIAYOU!

71-59 loss

ngee ann training in the morning... so tired..
rain started to pour in the middle of the training and did some drills under the shelter..
train our leg muscles and some shooting drills..
besides tat.. laoheng keep telling me to overcome my psychology barrier i had..
but i dunno how! =( why is there psychology barrier?
i dun wish to get too tired cos i will be having a match in the afternoon...

match started at 5pm at sbc... against tampines west(a rather 2 man team)..
4 players of cckcc did not come and receive a news that the coach wont be coming...
wat the fuck.. wat's the problem with this coach man.. no sense of responsibility..
giving stupid excuse like he din receive the msg.. how can it be when all 12 players received it and he dont... give a better excuse like he's not free or wat la...
how cckcc play with this kind of coach...? we got good players.. better players year by year..
but the fucking coach is the same.. all he does is to get money for 'coaching'( starting to think is he a coach??) and scolding players when he's not happy.. think we played better in the last two matches without this coach... where has ur responsibility gone? he should have know we got inter con even b4 he reached Singapore...cant he even ask when's our next match?
i only had one suggestion.. change the coach...

lost this match.. by 12 pts.. we played our best... yan ming is the best player on court.. had a good debut for cckcc... we lost because of rebounds and some easy 3 pts from their players..
we played a tight match in the first half.. not losing more than 10 pts.. however... in the third quarter.. they made some shots from the 3 pt line.. losing alot of pts.. but we fought back slowly..

we are playing with only 8 players.. i do not have the good stamina to endure in the court.. played almost 40 mins... only get to sub out to get drinks and rest only awhile b4 getting back..
played veri badly... got 15 pts... had to defend well at one side and help to attack at the other..
but i dun do well at both ends.. shoulders are stiff and trembling.. guess tat's the result of the the shooting drills during np training.. too tired to run up and down.. almost have cramps near the end of the match..
lost by 10 pts in the last 1min plus.. we had to shoot in some 3s to get back..
but i shoot all the balls whenever there's chance.. all were air balls... i knew i can pass the balls to others like kah cheong or yanming but i din..
guess at that time.. i was even too tired to think... =(

i was even accused for injuring a player who was sent to the hospital.. had quite a large tear from his lips to somewhere near his nose.. bloody mess.. guess it cant stop bleeding..
but i din injure him at all.. all i knew is tat he juz fell down behind me and i got the rebound.. i din touch him at all... hopefully he's fine..

tired.....

Np training

woooooh.....!
checked my exam results in the morning b4 my training..
and hope it wont affect my mood to train..
luckily i passed all... =) if not sure sian...

had my training in the morning
and 9 of us came...
all ended fast because of rain..

after this, went to have my lunch with waiming,yingxian,gabriel,kelvin.. and decided to go to the sch library to watch some video cds.. but all ended up in the board games room... leaving waiming alone to watch his movie in the room..

had alot of fun in the room.. played Game Of Life and Risk.. im the biggest loser there man...!
got lots of fun and pon my physio at sgh.. fix another appointment on tues and tat was straight after my training.. =/

knew i gotto buck up in the training.. laoheng had said this training is all focus on defence.. =(
need to try veri hard to get myself back..

this ivp selection is hard... =(

Earthquake..

wat a special day for me..... lol..
this is the first time i had felt tremors in my house..

i was doing some push-ups in my room and when i got up,i felt giddy suddenly..
i tot i was going to die,cos i remembered yingxian mentioned earlier during our np training tat we will be the next Antonio Puerta( a footballer who died because of heart attack during a game)..
then i saw my shirt which was hanging on the clothes stand moved... i quickly sat down and really felt my room was shaking... den it stopped after a while..
having met with such life-threatening situation,i went out of my room and saw my mum and bro standing up too.. they said the sofa was shaking... i knew there was an earthquake near singapore.. and a strong one..
quickly, i went to ask yingxian and marc in msn whether they feel the tremors and they said no...
marc even told me that the pp near my house is drilling ba..
cant be possible...how can they drill my whole house down...?
den later yingxian told me there was an earthquake is indonesia and ritcher scale reads 7.9..
a strong one indeed.

arrgh.. i got toothache..

NP training

went for np training in the morning and it was still raining when i woke up..
not in the mood or have any energy to train.. guess it was because i slept late last night..

only 8 pp turned up for the training..
training start at 10am plus.. it was tough although it dun look like one.. juz some shootings and defend drills.. the defend drills alone can kill me.. it was all so tough.. no water and stamina..
all end around 12plus.. wat a short but tough training..
coach even told me to strengthen my legs more.. sian...
hope thurs training wont be tough.. heard will be combined with the gals.. and hope the gals can distract laoheng.. =)

heard from gabriel tat the IVP fixtures are out..
Ngee Ann are grouped along with NTU,NUS,SMU and RP...
all are tough games...
i must buck up and train well and get well-conditioned to get selected to play for my first-ever IVP after missing one in yr 1 through injury... darn..

after eating,yingxian,waiming, weijun and i took cab home... yingxian decided to come to my house for some games.. and marc joined us abit later in the afternoon.. i had fun but was tired too.. =(

before yingxian and marc left my house.. yingxian and i taught marc how to wear the contact lenses.. so troublesome...
teach so many times still dunno.. im such a fast learner.. but he....? hai..
but somehow or somewat or dunno wat.. he look rather suave.. dunno y....

=)

71-39 Victory

had a haircut in the morning at around 11am plus...
then went back home and slp again.. maybe because of waking up so early..
had my dinner with marc around 5plus b4 going for my match..

met up with my mates at cck and went to aljunied...
also recieved a call from waiming tat he cant make it for the match to coach us..
initially,it was xiuhan to offer his help,but cant make it in the last min.. so had to call waiming up for his help.. but he oso cant make it in the end.. so we were without a coach and oso two of our important players,yan ming and kenny..

well.. did not start the match as i was nervous,can do more warm ups to get ready for the match.. when i saw their starters,some of them dun look like a basketballer.. they look more like a dragon boater to me..!
a tight contest in the first quarter.. lost by several pts.. our offense was not going as steady as we want..
when it was my turn to play in the second quarter.. i hope i can do much better.. the knee wrap which i bought had made good use for me.. putting less pressure and weight for me..unlike the brace..

By the end of third quarter, we had stretched our lead to abt 20+ pts.. made several fast breaks and defend well.. now it seems to be a one-sided game so sean decided to rest me and say he scared i might hurt myself again.. but i still wan to play.. it's had been so long since playing my first match and of cos i wan to play more and my knee is feeling good and normal..

Overall... i think i still din put in so much effort.. only played two quarters and had 14pts.. some easy shooting and 2 three pts out of 3 attempts.. =)
Jason got the most pts-20pts.. thanks to him and the rest of the team, we had won the team by this thick margin..

I had oso realised tat i had been playing too much on offense, neglecting the duty to defend and rebounding..
knowing tat next match is against Tampines West( a seeded team), i had to do more on defense..
and hopefully we can win...

=)

finally got the knee wrap i wan at queensway...
thanks marc for accompanying me to queensway..
went to BBDC to watch marc enrol for his driving course after traveling to queensway..
return home and did alot of workout.. hopefully i can be ready for tmr match.. first game after 11mths.. =) and a good way to experiment myself on court
with waiming,my last resort coach, can we win?? =/

=)

went to cck gym but the whole stadium is closed due to duno wat family day.. made a waste trip
instead, i called up Marc to accompany me to buy knee support..

went to lot 1 but do not have the one i want,so make a trip down to west mall... but to no avail too... after eating.. we both went home.. chat alot of stuffs on the way back..

went jogging at around 7pm.. know i have to jog and run more.. or else my weight is catching up..
today nth special too.. juz a normal or random day for me...

Tired

went back to np to help carry the wheelchairs to United World College for the wheelpower training and i met ivor in 985 bus by chance after his driving lesson.. he was going for the training too.. glad that there's someone i knew was going too..

Upon reaching there, we ( me , mingkai, ivor and the rest, i duno their names) carry those chairs to the basketball court in the sports hall.. the court remind me of those in sbc except it's air conditioned.. went in and nobody was there except for some of the students there... we managed to borrow some balls and start playing.. while all of them wanted to play with the wheelchairs , i went to the other side to start shooting balls...

been shooting balls for 2 hrs plus.. din shoot balls for so long b4!!now my shoulders are stiff..
then, their sch volleyball team came in and wanted to use the court... but were sent back cos we book the entire hall... but one gal caught my attention.. she's the only asian among the blondes there... believe she's a mixed blood.. have a pair of nice eyes.. like tat kana attracted liao..
in the end.. they went out..
well.. i went out too..
to drink some water... =(

the training was veri relaxed compared to those basketball trainings i usually have.. only using the upper body strength and the game was fun.. din know that sitting in wheelchair and play basketball can be tat fun..

it all end abt 10pm,by that time i was veri tired.. quickly took the MRT home and on my way back, i found out lot 1 had change.. since when got tunnel one?!
den instead of waiting for my bus,i ran home.. only takes 3min plus.. wat a fast runner...

after this tiring whole day i oso found out one thing .. i cant jump shot anymore.. i dunno why.. it's either my weight is pulling me down, or my knees are not strong enough.. how can it be like tat when my first game is juz three days away...? =(

First Blog

my first blog..
wanted to start blogging long ago but tests and exams had been bothering me..
now tat im free cos im having my HOLIDAYS now.. =)
free to do anything i like =)

nth to say much too on my first post
finished jogging at lamsoon, kana chase by dog.. nabei! the owner ^$%@$!
now one thing i learnt when jogging, do not overtake the dogs..

and of cos hope tat i can shed some kgs and get my knees stronger
cos this sat is my first basketball tournament ever since injuring myself in last oct..
really hope to play well against Kreta Ayer-Kim Seng..
not knowing much abt the team but cant bring myself to under-estimate them..
with new players like yan ming and jason joining us, we can win
but without prasad, we got to work hard for the rebounds...
really hope to win on this sat....