Im no flirt!!

eh.. marc, yingxian, chengjiang and gordan..
i no flirt la...
juz now the whole bus know im a big flirt...!
so loud...
got pretty gals inside one leh...
but i really dunno how to flirt...
a shy boy like me... really...
Marc? can u teach me?
lol..

went to suntec with my frens...
ate carl's junior even though im sick...
quite full..
saw kelly pang at bugis too..
short and skinny..
lol...
tot she wore a FBT shorts there..


eh.. im not a flirt!
no flirt...
no flirt...

Basketball-less

lost against SP
by 40 pts
score: 80-40
half...

we din play well.. seems like 5th and 6th place is not important...
SP's graduating players are happy to end this IVP this way..

played in the last quarter..
not good enough.. create few opportunities for myself and some for gad..
only few went in..

think i came for the match for the sake of coming..
i came late..
was feeling sick, hot breath, feverish, back and neck pain..
coach din coach us due to his tong whye meeting..
xiuhan took over..

dun feel like playing basketball for now..
no more passion i would sae..
seriously.. i din have any rest after my operation..
after the end of three months rehab.. i went on to run and play basketball..
my graft needs time to heal.. to attach to the bone..
u cant rush things.. the graft needs abt 1 yr to heal.. doc told me months back.. i ignore..

guess this is the time i can rest now..
IVP getting a 6th position out of 9 teams?
SIM and SMU i wun sae.. they are easier teams..
RP? i wun sae too..
finishing above them aren't anything to be proud of..
roughly i can guess tat there's some problems or watever in NP team..
saw some of them whisper to each other with their stern and serious face..
dunno wat are they talking abt..
i dun care now..
i juz wan a rest..

seriously.. i dun wan anyone to tell me im playing little because of my knee..
laoheng said to me a couple of times..
juz now xiuhan told me again..
when can i stop hearing that..
im confident of myself..
im recovering well.. im not injured! i dun feel any pain or discomfort in my knee..
the physiotherapist was oso confident in me and had discharged me..
my knee i know how to protect..
i jumped to my fullest during the match juz now and landed properly..
i have to admit.. i hestitate to jump..
but i know how to protect my knee..

perhaps im abit rusty..not as fast or strong as b4..
i know wat to do during tis time round..
i wont go and look for the passion in basketball.. instead i will let it find me..
strengthening my knee is next..
Sean told me juz now.. the more u strengthen, maybe u will play more..
i wan to jump higher than now in future..
maybe some of u will think tat's a wishful thinking of mine after having plagued by this injury..
but im gonna start training..


seriously.

No more physios!

YES! NO MORE PHYSIOS FOR ME AGAIN!!

Finally after 1 yr, i was discharged from the hospital le..

Today, went for my physio for my biodex strength test...
if i pass the test, i need not come anymore
thanks choon leong and mingkai for accompanying me to the sgh..
in the end,i did it.. the results...

Biodex test
quads-97%
hams-93%

my physio therapist, suelyn, oso ended the session by telling me my right leg is stronger by 8% and my left knee improved alot...
feel so happy that i had graduated from my physiotherapy... but i know i have to continue strengthening to minimise the chance of reinjuring myself..

after my last physio, went to town with my friends and ate alot...
get veri tired at the end of the day..
rainy days... cold sia..

been sleepless over nights...
Y?

Sch start

Sch started today...
couldn't slp last night..
so i went to the fridge to find cough syrup.. hopefully can make my drowsy and fall asleep..
but the effect takes so long and i slpt at 5plus am..
class at 10am.. but i overslpt and came to sch at around 1pm..
first day pon lesson liao.. =/

den after sch end, went to bukit panjang plaza to walk...
so tired.. hopefully i can slp

SMU and NTU

played in both matches..
won SMU 45 pts and lost NTU 15 pts..
was brought off after a while in the court as i was not mentally prepared..
coach said he was afraid i will get injured again if im not mentally prepared..
din expect i will be playing..

now fighting for 5th and 6th place against SP at SP this thursday..
i got knee pain...
dunno isit because against SMU i landed on my recovering leg when rebounding or from the fall when i was going to sub for gab.. slippery floor, useless shoes..

knee hurts alot when i try to run and sprint or jump.. even if i was mentally prepared for the NTU game, think my leg cant take it...


THURSDAY VS SP
muz win...

2nd phase player?

played against RP
won
but disappointed
will rather laoheng dun use me..
was not even playing like a secondary sch player

disappointed cos only the score margin is big enough,
i will den get to play...
am not a 2nd phase player
i wan to win

not prepared to come on as a sub during the game..
tot 12 players used up..
loosen my shoelaces
but laoheng came over to tell me and gab to get ready..
wtf.. was he consoling us,bluffing us? or really gonna play us?
i dunno..
i went up,missed a shot, came back to the bench and warmed it up again..

i was thinking maybe if i go nyp, i can play more under guang fu..
but back to reality, i was like a shevchenko in chelsea..
he choose to rely more on yr 1 players than players who brought him a 2nd and 3rd position previous yr..(although i din played much cos of injury)
not saying our yr 1 is bad... we have good players like weijun, see guan and raven..
three players whom laoheng praised juz now..

dunno wat's up with me.. tat's probably wat i was thinking at the moment..
now if my coach wan to play me.. i juz play lor..
if not, den nvm lor..
win or lose i dun care so much liao..
it makes me feel like among the ones who were fighting for victory does not include me..


heck care..

Lost NUS

Just as expected... i sat down on bench for the whole game..
i dun seems to sulk or asking myself why i din play..
i believe it's not the coaching problems..
im juz not aggressive enough or strong..

Np team played quite well against the NUS team.. but defensive rebounds are not doing us the favour or i shall sae we are not doing well on our defensive rebounds..
tat's why we lose the game.. they got alot of 2nd attempts..

i played basketball since sec 1...
this is the second time i was benched for the whole game..
remembered the first time was against Tagawa in the second round of youth cup..
before tat i was the 6th or 7th player in my team..
den the next match against the combined red sch, i decided not to go..
i bluffed to my coach saying that i got test.. but in fact i went to play basketball with my frens..
=X ( shh..dun tell any coaches, especially Guang Fu!)

and tonight is my 2nd time.. i really hope there wont be another time although there are high chances getting benched again.. next match against RP on wed..

i felt abit better when daryl told me suddenly and he said if i was like my yr 1 before i was injured, tonight i will be playing...
thanks...
but i need to work hard to get back to the same again..
poor knee..

win RP and SMU first before the tough fight against NTU..

Start Of IVP

tmr will be the start of IVP.. finally, the long-awaited day has come..
tmr will be against NUS.. i firmly believe tat if we, the NP team win this game.. we will fancy a veri high chance to play in the semi-finals..
we have to fight hard... guess so will the NUS team..
we can win...

had my dinner at KFC with marc and ying xian.. luckily they jio-ed me out if not i would be bored to death at home.. nth to do..
before eating my dinner.. i went to have some shootings with my fren,Sean...
he is playing for SP and will be playing against NYP tmr..
talked alot abt our teams and stuffs..
even scaring him with our Mr Flawless( Raven) =)

after dinner, decided to dye my hair.. there's abit left so i finished the bottle..
den went on to find some games in Yahoo..
not bad.. found Monopoly.. although playing one on one with the computer player.. i found some contentness by winning the computer by alot.. spent abt 40 mins to get it bankrupt.. =)

but SHIT! i forgot abt my hair... needed 15 mins to get it done but i exceeded the timing..
SHIT! came out of the bathroom with red hair.. dad was shocked.. AIyo!

die la.. wat am i going to do tmr.. someone will talk abt my hair.. seeking lots of attention..
marc still told me 'ang ang' means lucky.. wth..
but hopefully get some lucky shots tmr too..=/

gotta do something abt my hair...=(
finished!

Anxiety...Ankle...

had a friendly match again with tong whye team...
this time we lost.. not because we played badly.. they played really well..
not all of the NP players came.. five had their inter-con match..

i could say that i had played slightly better than the first friendly.. cos i had take note of wat the coach saes and wan from me.. trying to get rid of my weaknesses by playing strongly and more aggressively.. get some points b4 coming out. den i couldn't continue after landing from a jump shot..

sharp pain was wat i felt.. i got subbed out in time.. then, i told the coach i cant continue as i felt soreness in my left ankle.. laoheng told me to rest and dun play anymore..
now some of us had roughly knew who are the 15 players to play for NP..
JIAYOU!


hopefully i can shake off this ankle problem before IVP which is on next mon.. first match against NUS.. a strong team..
had to play well..


i need a new pair of basketball shoes..!LAOHENG!!

How to play basketball?

how do i play basketball when i..
have no confidence?
am not as strong and aggressive as b4?
am injury prone?

today, had a friendly match with tong whye.. i know i din play well..
it's been a tough and physical game..
having defend against the better players there, i had exposed all weaknesses within me..

after the match, laoheng told the whole team how each of us fare during the friendly..
i was told tat i am not as strong and aggressive as b4 and oso he's afraid i might injure my knee again..
i know my knee is not strong enough and tat is why i cant be aggressive..
now having hurt my back and ankle.. things look worse for me..
i can only defend stronger players but not the faster ones..

overall,almost everybody in the np team played really well tonight.. we won the tong whye jiazhu even though the coach told us that they are not in full force and they had some missing players..

IVP is juz 5days away..
i know wat i need to do..
i muz change my mindset.. overcoming the psychological barrier..
i muz get my confidence back
i muz oso get stronger in the fastest time and do something abt my stamina(although coach din mention,but i know my stamina is bad..)
no more injuries...

But am i really to play?
i will not be surprise if i was not selected for the IVP..